Streams and Consciousness

via Authentic I don't think my consciousness streams. I think it gathers and deepens until I am a well drowning in myself because I built the walls too high. But the bricks were my own,  and my lungs will fill with authenticity as I go under.  

Lavender

via Authentic I want to be me. Which means I want to be a sprig of lavender pressed between the pages of a Rumi poetry book.  It makes perfect sense, don't you see?   Because honestly,  something beautiful and poetic and slightly sad  sounds exactly like me.

As Usual

via Authentic I read a lot of books, looking for the right mirror  so that I can see my authentic self. Sometimes I catch glimpses, sometimes its only a shadow in the corner of my eye. I see fragments of myself in words written by people long dead, and I see fragments of myself in [...]

1991

via Parallel I wonder when I will be able to look back and see parallels in my life. 19 to 91, I wonder what it will be like. Maybe then loving myself will be a habit, maybe standing my ground will be easier once I have a cane to help me. Maybe I'll be able [...]

Side by Side

via Parallel Two roads diverged in a wood, the woods not so yellow, the roads not quite parallel. But they present an option none the less. I take the road more traveled by, and it hasn't made much difference. It's the choices I make once I reach my destination that matter.

Waiting to bloom

via Genie There is magic in the buds on trees, waiting to bloom and fill the air. As the petals fall the wind will be sweetened, our breaths will grow gentle, and our hearts will be full.

I will be a flower in April

via Fret I've decided. I will do better, be better, live better. I will be like the flowers that stubbornly bloom even in the April snow, Beautiful even left out in the cold.

Lantern

via Fret   I worry what door to take,  in the endless hallway of days that I walk through. But you are the lantern that guides my way, you are the sign that I chose rightly.   

Notebooks

via Crank I have too many notebooks. Too many containers for thoughts and feelings I am hesitant to fill. I dream of cranking out journal pages and inspirational lists, but I am stuck, always, on the first blank page. I want to better myself, spiritually, mentally, emotionally. But first I must get past that first [...]

Something about spring

via Crank Something about spring makes me frenzied. Like the shy buds and balmy weather are whispering in my ear, telling me "Run, little one, be free. Be wild." My mind cranks out ideas and inspiration to fill my heart and I am left yearning for more hours  more days to get everything done. But [...]